I have this strong desire to travel. An urge to leave & travel to anywhere I please. To forget everything & everyone. Even just for a moment so I can do things I’d enjoy all by myself. To be free of worry & stress, all the negative bullshit that consists of my everyday life. A day of solitude. A day for peace of mind & absolute bliss. Oh how fulfilling that would be.
Then when the day is over & night comes, I’d go home. Back to my daily life. I’d pick up from where I left off & start from there. Maybe even handling things better than I would have if I didn’t take a break from it all.
I
DON’T
WANT
TO
DO
THIS
STUPID
ASS
POWER
POINT
WHY
THE
FUCK
DO
WE
EVEN
HAVE
A
PROJECT
IN
CALCULUS
WHAT
THE
FUCK
AND
TOMORROWS
OUR
LAST
DAY
BUUUUULLSHIIIIIIIIT
My work ethic has gotten worst these past few months.
Whenever I try to do homework, I get distracted or I put it off. Homework that could have been done in an hour takes 4. I’ve been writing my essay for 2 hours when I could have been done with it an hour ago.
I have way too many distractions. -_-
I SERIOUSLY misjudge a lot of people, aha.
Senior Farewell earlier tonight. A week left of school & 2 till graduation. It’s unbelievable.. Four years went by so fast, but now it’s time to move onto bigger things. Forever a Bloomington Bruin! c/o2012 WE 12UN THIS! <3
I love doing these, hahaha.
1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
School!
2. Who are you in love with?
Nobodyyy.
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
No but I’ve stuck one up my nose when I was little. Hahaha.
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
An eraser.
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
This past Sunday.
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
Nope.
7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
No car.
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
Last year.
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
Nah.
10. Are you hot?
YES. This weather is just UGH. Hahaha.
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Agua.
12. What are you wearing right now?
Shorts & a baseball tee.
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
Wash it myself.
14. Last food that you ate?
Fried fish with rice.
15. Where were you last week at this time?
Don’t know.
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
A sheer button up & a hoodie.
17. When is the last time you ran?
Earlier.
18. What’s the last sporting event you watched?
Basketball game.
19. What is your favorite animal?
animals* Dogs, cats, lions, tigers, wolves, & sharks.
20. Your dream vacation?
Anywhere that’s not local.
21. Last person’s house you were in?
Nina’s?
22. Worst injury you’ve ever had?
I crushed my pinky toe with a brink when I was younger.
23. Have you been in love?
Nope.
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
Yes.
25. Last play you saw?
Redlands Shakespeare Festival at Smiley Park. (:
26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
It’s a SECRET, right? So I can’t tell you. Hahaha.
27. What are your plans for tonight?
Seniors Awards Night, HOLLA!
28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?
Oh shit, idk. That’s so long ago.
29. Next trip you are going to take?
To the restroom.
30. Ever go to camp?
Camping? Like twice in my lifetime.
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
Yeeep.
32. What do you want to know about the future?
Eh idk.
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
Body Spray.
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor’s visit?
Probably my physical.
35. Where is your best friend?
They’re all doing they’re own thing.
36. How is your best friend?
I hope they’re all gooood.
37. Do you have a tan?
I’m like the whitest person ever.
38. What are you listening to right now?
Maroon 5.
39. Do you collect anything?
Money. $$$
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
Ehrm idk.
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
NEVAH! cause I’m not yet licensed. :c
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
Yomp.
43. What does your last text message say?
“De nada!”
44. Do you like hot sauce?
Yeeep.
45. Last time you took a shower?
This morning.
46. Do you need to do laundry?
I’m doing it already.
47. What is your heritage?
The usual jiggaboo filipino’s do.
48. Are you someone’s best friend?
Yep!
49. Are you rich?
-____________________-
50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?
Laying in bed.
On the last day of school, I wanna tell some people how I really feel about them.
Both good & bad. I’ve got so much to say & it’ll be the perfect time to let those individuals know. Well not really.. Maybe during Graduation .. or after. Hahahah. IDK.
Whatever. I’m not even gonna see 95% of those people after high school so why even bother.
Just a thought.
47. Who was the last person to call you?
My big bro.
48. Do you sing in the shower?
On the daily!
49. Do you dance in the car?
Hahaha yeah.
50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
I owned one when I was little!
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
Beginning of senior yr for yearbook/Grad pictures.
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Some.
53. Is Christmas stressful?
Nevaaaah! I love it. <3
54. Ever eat a pierogi?
Idek wtf that is.
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
I like all kinds of pie, except for pumpkin pie.
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
A teacher & an architect.
57. Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes. O_O
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
Yup!
59. Take a vitamin daily?
No, I should tho. :|
60. Wear slippers?
Yeeep.
61. Wear a bath robe?
Sometimes after I showah.
62. What do you wear to bed?
Whatevers comfy.
63. First concert?
It was a filipino band, I forgot their name.
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
TARGET!
65. Nike or Adidas?
Nike.
66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
Cheetos.
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Peanuts.
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
Safe & Sound.
69. Ever take dance lessons?
Nope.
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
Whatever he wants.
71. Can you curl your tongue?
No. :(
72. Ever won a spelling bee?
In class. Hahah.
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
Yes.
74. What is your favorite book?
Too many of them.
75. Do you study better with or without music?
Depends, usually w/o cause I get distracted & start singing. Hahah.
76. Regularly burn incense?
No.
77. Ever been in love?
No.
78. Who would you like to see in concert?
Linkin Park.
79. What was the last concert you saw?
It was a filipino band when I went to Texas.
80. Hot tea or cold tea?
Both. I like both.
81. Tea or coffee?
Both, whichever I’m in the mood for.
82. Favorite type of cookie?
Oreo or chocolate chip&peanut butter cookie.
83. Can you swim well?
Yes I can!
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yes.
85. Are you patient?
Usually.
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
DJ.
87. Ever won a contest?
Yeup.
88. Ever have plastic surgery?
Nope.
89. Which are better black or green olives?
GREEN. Black olives are nastay.
90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
Do whatcha gotta do just don’t be a slut!
91. Best room for a fireplace?
Bedroom. (:
92. Do you want to get married?
Of course.
Up, Up & Awaaake!
1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
No. lol
2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
Nope.
3. Have you taken someones virginity?
Nope.
4. Is trust a big issue for you?
Uhh nah, not really.
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
No. -_-
6. What are you excited for?
Graduation & Grad Night! ;)
7. What happened tonight?
Jst the usual.
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
Yeah, don’t be sloppy!
9. Is confidence cute?
Sure, jst don’t be conceited.
10. What is the last beverage you had?
Water.
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
3.
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
Yomp!
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
Work for my aunt, gotta make some $$$ !
14. What are you going to spend money on next?
Grad tickets prolly.
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
Nope.
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
Yep.
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Ehrm my close friends.
18. The last time you felt broken?
It’s been a while.
19. Have you had sex today?
Nope.
20. Are you starting to realize anything?
Oh yes.
21. Are you in a good mood?
Nooo.
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
Fuck yes but in a cage. LOL
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
I think so.
24. What do you want right this second?
For school to end or get rid of all my hw/projects. Hahaha.
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
OH HAIL NO. lol jk idk.
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
Yessir.
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
Wouldn’t last.
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
A post on tumblr.
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
Of cooourse.
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
Depends.
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
No.
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
I’m pretty sure. lol
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
Nope.
34. Listening to?
Listening to some Logic!
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
Yeeep.
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
Dk, prolly at home.
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Noope.
38. Who did you last call?
Chrystal.
39. Who was the last person you danced with?
Vincent & a whole buncha other people!
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Cause I wanted tooo. (:
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
Yesterday!
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
My momma’s cheek, earlier.
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
LOL omg yeah.
44. Do you tan in the nude?
Once, awkwaaard.
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
Nah.
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
Nope.
I was looking through my messages on FB & I found this conversation with this guy I used to like last summer. It’s crazy how fast everything happened. OOOH that boy made me cheese so much. (: But our love story was short lived. Hahahah.
He was the cutest & sweetest.. He was my first kiss. First guy I’ve ever really liked. Lots of firsts with that boy. I still remember how I felt when everything started to fall apart. First time I’ve ever cried over a boy.. First time I’ve ever been hurt. Seriously felt like shit, I just felt so fragile.
BUT Now that I look back at it.. I can’t help but laugh at all the things I stressed about. They were all stupid bullshit that I shouldn’t have let get to me. I was so timid minded & insecure. I was new to feeling that way for anyone, I was such a noob. But hey, we all gotta start somewhere right? & To be honest I think it was my fault too, that we never worked out. When things got hard, I gave up. Whenever he tried to talk to me, I never replied cause of my little insecurities. I was afraid to get any deeper, any more involved than I already was cause I didn’t like the feeling of being open to anyone. Nope. So I just let our relationship fade. No goodbyes, no closures, nothing.
Well anyways we recently talked again as friends & we hung out together with some of his friends. It wasn’t awkward at all, even with how we stopped talking out of nowhere. Our relationship now is so much different from how it was when we first met. If you could just see the difference in our conversations. It’s crazy. I remember when I thought that I’d never get over it & that maybe he’d come around so we can have our second chance. LOL. Such naive thoughts. But now I’m just grateful that we even happened. Now I just smile every time I think of how we were all lovey dovey & cute with each other.
As stupid as it sounds I feel like I owe that boy cause now I’m not as easily hurt, disappointment is easier to get over & pain is easier to handle.
So to that boy, THANK YOU. (:
I want to fly on an airplane.
Just cause I feel like it.
Everyday, all I wanna do is sleep.
Today I slept in all of my periods except for first. Plus it took me about an hour to get up out of bed. It’s getting harder & harder everyday to just get up. I do nothing at home. Absolutely nothing. I can’t even do homework. I get sidetracked or I put it off.
This is bad. This is really bad. :| AAAH.
I’m stressed the fuck out.
So much to get done; projects, finals, AP testing, & events to deal with. I seriously wanna just put everything aside & sleep. I’m exhausted.
This month has got to be the most stressed I’ve ever felt in a while.. & the month barely started. siiiigh*
Less than a month left tho & I can just sit back & chill. Can’t wait.
I feel so proud paying for my own shit.
Yeah, it hurts financially to spend so much but it’s also a rewarding feeling. Paid for prom, prom dress, grad night, avid stole, school dues, etc etc.
I don’t even wanna calculate how much I spent but I just feel so good right na! Hahahah. All these expenses are gonna be worth it tho.
YOMP! ;)
